This morning I woke up feeling a deep sense of excitement. I was blessed with a couple of beautiful emails from people who read this blog and feel inspired to create change in their own lives. Knowing that sharing my journey inspires others reinforces that I am on the right path.
From the plethora of lewd, rude, and crude comments I get on social media, it is clear that not everyone truly gets the intention of my blog and my photos. Sometimes I’m not even sure I fully grasp why I am the way I am or why I do what I do and share the way I do.
I suppose this journey began with my own path to sensual transformation. I began my childhood as a victim. I continued to be a victim throughout my teens and even into my very early twenties.
At some point, I decided to reclaim my sexuality. I dove in to me on many levels, but I was still playing the role I thought I should. I was a selfless and devoted daughter, mother, and wife. That path was filled with beauty, but last year I came to a shocking realisation. I had what I call an “eat, pray, love moment“. In fact, I actually read a quote by Elizabeth Gilbert, the author of Eat, Pray, Love that inspired me to create change in my life:
“Moreover, I have boundary issues with men. Or maybe that’s not fair to say. To have issues with boundaries, one must have boundaries in the first place, right? But I disappear into the person I love.
I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog’s money, my
I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else.“
In essence, Elizabeth is talking about unconditionally loving her man. I am a firm believer in unconditional love. For me, during the beautiful years I spent married to my husband, I loved fiercely and unconditionally. I was committed, loyal, and I as truly ALL IN.
Then something happened and everything changed in the blink of an eye. So here I am; it is 2018 and I am a single woman for the first time in over two decades. I am discovering aspects of my being that I had no idea existed. I feel a sense of freedom I have never felt before and it is truly exciting.
I hope you are having a beautiful day…
From my heart to yours,