There is a part of me that has been repressed. On the surface, to an external viewer, I am sure I appear to be deeply liberated. On the surface, I imagine, it looks like I have embraced a deep level of freedom. I surmise that most people who view any of the thousands of nude self portraits I have taken, see my act of bold nakedness as a form of self proclaimed liberation. That is correct on some levels, but on other levels, it’s total bullshit.
During my marriage, my partner and I focused on our mutual pleasure. We viewed our intimate connection as the foundation of our family. We were beautiful together. The challenge for me is that, since our separation, I have not reconnected with my sexuality. In fact, I daresay I have become disconnected. I still focus on my pleasure either by myself or very rarely with a sexual partner but the quality of self and partner connection leaves me wanting more.
The truth is; when I check in with myself, I feel somewhat disassociated. My sensuality and my sexuality are aspects of myself that I have put a lot of work into over the years. I transformed my sexual traumas. I let go of the judgments of others and learned to embrace myself as a sexual being. Somewhere along the way, I stopped focusing on my daily self pleasure practice. Somewhere along the way, I became shut down to the experience of pleasure with a sexual partner.
I don’t mean that I don’t have orgasms; I take time to masturbate almost daily. Even during my moon cycle, I embrace the power of orgasms as a tool for transformation, but it’s become mechanical. It’s something I do because it feels good and I know that it’s important for my emotional, spiritual and physical health. I mean, that’s great and all, but WTF!?! So I cum to stay healthy? I pleasure myself to maintain emotional balance? Although the benefits of a daily orgasm practice is undeniable, the quality of my orgasm is also important. I have lost track of my Tantric awareness.
Posting nude photos of myself publicly has been both a positive and a negative experience for me. Being lumped into the category of “naturist” or “nudist” has taken a toll on my sexual psyche. When I create a post, I ask myself if what I’m sharing is aligned with the naturist community. From here forward, I will not censor myself. I will not dim my light or modify my self expression to meet the needs of others. The main purpose of my blog, Get Naked With Joy, is freedom of expression.
From this day forward (which also happens to be my beautiful niece’s birthday) I will no longer inhibit myself. I am here to share my journey with you in the most uninhibited manner I am able to muster. I’m sure some of you are sitting there going holy f*ck how much more free can Joy possibly be? Well, sit tight beautiful. Cause I am committing to daily blogging. I am also working on a video course with the intention of empowering each of you to reclaim and reactivate your self pleasure.
On a side note, I have decided to post only fully clothed or implied nude photos and videos on both my Twitter account and on this blog. If you’d like to access my archives (912 images,27 videos,1 audio) plus my daily Patreon posts, please join me on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/getnakedwithjoy
Happy Sunday. I hope you have a truly blissful rest of your weekend!
From my heart to yours, Joy